today is already the last day of the year 2009.. and my friends are planning some countdown activities.. and i am actually confused that should i go... dunno y i feel like not really welcomed there.. it's like they dun even care bout my existence also.. dunno y just felt like that.. and i taught i can happily watch alvin and the chipmunks 2 at the very last minute of the year 2009 with my besties.. but none of them even wanna watch.. guess this time will be my very 1st time to watch alone.. wat a sad last day... sesat betul.. i just wanted a nice and fun gathering.. but it sounds so meaningless for me.. special thanks to jie that she agreed to accompany me to jj.. she's nice.. =) i'm telling myself that i gotta feel nice.. it's like where's the warmth and care all this while.. =(

ps: no offence to anyone..

this few days dunno y i felt like everyone treated me so emo-ly.. except someone.. =) well... dunno y i can felt that he dun like my existence.. well.. it's so hard to understand him.. now i guess it's time to believe that he never cared for me before.. i wondered that if he was just acting in front of me all this while... errr.. maybe i'm the one who think too much... gonna get a new life by 12am tonight.. dun wan to be in this super complicated and stupid life...

next year i believe will be a very tough year for me... and no one is giving me encouragement except mummy.. =) but i don't think she really understand my tough-ness though... yeah.. i know i should pray more frequently... =)

just now went piano class and teacher suddenly asked me that i wanna offer myself to play piano in the english choir o not.. and i was totally shocked... haha.. i wanted this very much ad.. but really scare will make everything a mess.. haha.. sesat betul.. i think i should take this opportunity and really improve myself.. gambatei!!

that's y i said it's a tough year for me... gotta be very well prepared for everything.. especially SPM!! wooo.. scary betul... gotta gambatei!! 1st thing i gotta change is my this stupid attitude.. hehe.. sweet 16 is over and here comes my bitter 17.. woots..

I'm prepared for my challenges!!! =D