just don't understand things well.... as some of my friends know... i'm seriously preparing for 4 music exams next year... i know the whole year i'm gonna suffer... cos i've got music exams and spm... so it's kinda scary whenever i think of that...

recently, i just got my grade 8 practical exam pieces and of course i was asked to start preparing by now.... so of course i do have to practice... and the weird thing is... my dad force me to practice everyday... where mostly of my friends just relax there... well... i dun really mind bout that... what really matters me is when ever i've got new song to play of course i'll just go slowly and catch everything in it... and here comes my mum.. she will like keep saying y u playing so bad?? and from that moment my mood turn bad!! seriously bad... u know when people are enjoying learning something new and u just say something bad of course pple will just get frustrated.... okay...watever.... and this really makes me dun feel like trying to play any new songs.... cos if i ever play wrong den she will start saying again.. i just don't understand y she can't think from my angle... i know i'm not as pro as what she wants me to be... i know i'm not that smart and talented.... but just let me enjoy my learning process... and another thing... just don't understand y she alwayz like to compare me and others.... even in my studies... and of course my piano skills... i know u really want me to be that successful... but i just need time... just please do not ever compare me with others... okay?? i really don't like this... God created everyone differently and everyone have their own specialty... it just depends on how you look at things....

well... just gonna say that i do really love to explore more in musics... but sometimes i'm really not in the mood... i have emotions too... =)
and that's me...

ps : this post is kinda meaningless... i just dunno what to say... =)