The week i almost fell.

its the 9th week proceeding to the 10th week of my first year semester 1 degree. and this is the very first time i felt like giving up everything. not just because of my degree. facing some pressures from the theory exam as well. everyday, parents without fail asking me the progress of my theory. and the problem is i dont even have time to do and practice them. not to say my theory homeworks. i dont even have time to sleep. have been torturing my brain, organs and the whole body this week. eventhough i feel so sleepy till an extend that i cannot resist anymore i still force myself to do it. been really tough last wednesday and thursday. really worried for the assignment very much. i shouldn't have agreed to become the leader at the first place. i guess i failed in becoming a leader. looking back at my foundation year, i finally realise how hard it is to be a leader and my all time leader is really great in doing things. she do things really much more professionally compared to me. and really thanks to one of my group member who finished arranging and editting the whole assignment when i just fell asleep. if he did not do it, i might really have to just stay awake for the whole night to do it and at that point of time i'm really sleepy till an extend that i can even sleep standing. i just feel so great. i know he is sleepy too but he did it. :D  the thing i worried most is the citation of the assignment. it is so important that i read a sentence the lecturer wrote on the marking scheme that : "failure of citation is the failure of the whole assignment". SHIT. why do citation ever exist in the first place. cant afford to let it be a problem. everyone's result is on my hands. damn. btw, i shall start preparing the slides tomorrow. i cant do it today. haven't recover from depression. :/  and then i shall start preparing for my upcoming QT test 2. btw, i'm pretty satisfied with my test 1 results. but i guess i can do better. told parents about it this morning and i'm glad they dint compare me with others this time. because they do this everytime which is one of the reason i'm always stressed. they asked me to try my best and do what i can and not to pressurise myself. which i sort of felt so touched of it. :')

everytime skype with mum and she will end up complaining i should have more sleep. she realise it through the evidence on my eyes. and yeah she said i look really terrible and dull.

and by the way, did i said that i done 2 stupid challenges this week? yeah. proud of it.
1st challenge: walk around the housing area till 4am almost 5am. :P went mamak at 2am i guessed. and this is also the first time i walked to mamak. haha. you dont expect that from me in Klang. my parents will kill me for doing that. :)
2nd challenge: stayed up in the library till its closed which is till 9pm. stay from 2pm till 9pm. this is epic right? and they did make announcement like those malls asking you to leave. hahax. i think this is cool. :)  never been inside a library that LONG! and was studying microeconmics the whole time. but still screwed up. whatever i guess. econs is never my favourite subject. :(  
he accompanied me for both the challenges. :)

and i watched SPONGEBOB SQUAREPANTS like crazy this week. i guess i'm almost addicted to it. never fail to laugh at any episode. :)   cant resist his cuteness. well, patrick is another that i favour. :)

should put this on my door.

might have go paint this out whenever i'm free. :) cant wait for this activity to happen. 

spongebob's party set. 

http://www.usbmemorysticks.net/spongebob-computer-gadgets

this website is even cooler. they provide Spongebob's USB, laptop cover, mouse, keyboard, speaker, bag, camera and even the spongebob made computer. this is so cool. :D 

The Dark Knight later! 

i want pictures in my DSLR. 

i want a new profile picture. 

i want to do more challenges that i've never done before. 

LIVE LIFE TO THE FULLEST! :D 

16th of july

been few weeks since last post. kinda dead. i know. due to the laziness, busy-ness and lots of things. and i've got nothing special to blog about except for some stupid things around. :)

last saturday, i broke my record to reach my so called second home latest after a movie. movie starts at 11.30am and passed the scary highway and lots of things. bla bla bla. slept at around 5.30am that day. EPIC. thinking back i wonder how i can really sleep that late. really so not me. and woke up around 9.30am after few hours for badminton. which means i only have 3 hours of sleep.

same last saturday, went through 2 tests that eats up a lot of my brain juice. need something like chicken essence to regenerate them back. :)

and same last saturday, napped on the table in friend's room. which means i did not went back to my own room to sleep. hahax.

i feel like a zombie today. really lack of sleep. last night slept for around 7 hours and yet i still feel sleepy. damn it. muscle was really pain today as a result for not warming up before badminton. but enjoyed badminton really very very much! :)

finished my IS assignment yesterday in a day. cant believe that i actually finished it. guess i'm really motivated. but dont know if i wrote the right thing in the assignment. hope its the right one.

havent even tidy up my notes. slack till so kao lat lo.

dont even feel like talking.

Happy and fun moments always goes away very fast.

i just experienced something that have shrink down my emotion from very happy to kinda frustrated. one friend of mine suddenly asked me about money stuffs and it sounds like she take it seriously. i know i should stop thinking all this by now. but it really disturbed me. seriously hate this kind of situation where i have to answers questions that i feel there's no right answer to it... it's like i'll ask why rather than how. damn it you know... i really wish i have someone right beside me now....


today it seems to be a day full of emotions to me... i woke up at 7 today which is because i'm presenting today. and i wish it's better if my mum were there... and headed to uni at 9.30am for marketing lecture. and the lecture started quite late and some classmates told me about the situation about yesterday's presenters being evaluated by the same lecture. and they got blasted. and however, i just don't feel like preparing anymore for my presentation while other 3 of my friends read ups and downs about the presentation script. and one of them which have no script with him sort of helping the other 3 to edit the script. and it comes to a part of lecture where the lecture showed us a short clip about ogawa advertising the massage chair during parents day. and i knew my tears will definitely drop down. so i only watched half of the advertistment. and my very good friend went and told me about the love of the family and how she missed her home. and then my tears just came out like that. i'm glad the guys din't sit beside me or else they will be laughing at me again..  and i guess i saw an expression on my friend's saying "woh-oh i'm in trouble" so she quickly turn to do her things. and i'm glad she's not that type that will start telling you to stop crying or asking why are you crying. this will seriously make me cry. haha... lolx... btw, i spotted a lot of people wiping their tears as well. so i dint feel that bad afterall. i dont know why..... and dont ask me why.. and even now when i think back and i feel its so silly. tomorrow back home d... :D  

due to the stupid very very high heels that i wore today, my leg are full of blisters. :((( and my plaster couldn't help at all. and my heels stucked at the holes between the steel bridge and also the sandy path [which is the only way to class]. and the guys laughed at me again.. they even make it so horrible that they act it out [take 1, take 2, take 3, and so on...... ]. and i went walking bare legs and my friend say i'm cool because they can never find others doing the same thing. :D  

as a conclusion : i did a lot of "sia sui" stuffs in uni today...

HOWEVER, SOMETHING MAKE ME FEEL GREAT TODAY!
did i ever told you how my presentation was?
i was really nervous at the point of time and i dint even know that i did that great till the lecture tells me so. she say i presented like a professional and that she can see confidence in my eyes. :))  great huh? THANK GOD for all this. i really prayed hard for this. glad that it's over now. another presentation upcoming for marketing subject. looking forward for it. :))   i've never been told that i'm great before... :D
She sort of say that we did a very good job and everything she expected on our topic are on our presentation. GOOD JOB! :))

i guess it's worth for spending the whole night memorizing and repeating the same thing again and again without even looking at my theory and homeworks. :/

some pictures for entertainment:

decided to buy a tray of Grade F egg. if you could ever see the difference of the size. amazingly small. cost me RM 2.60 for 10 eggs only. :) 

watched spongebob [english version] on the tv last sunday before going the uni for talks. i feel great after that! :D 

decided to cook this on sunday night as i do not want to waste any more unnecessary money. :/ 

the picture after it cooked. and it taste great. and i did not feel full after eating that. but i didn't care. 

that's all. :)

kay. proceed to unfinished work now. :)

it's today.. yeah today.

today i spent a lot of money again... haiz.. what am i suppose to say... 

RM 20 for my bike AGAIN!! GERAM BETUL... feel like getting cheated for the 2nd, 3rd, 4th, 5th, 6th, ................. time... can't believe my bike's pedal just spoil like that... haiz... cost me so damn much... seriously worst than driving right??? i'm really glad i have a car with me here..... THANKS DADDY!!! 

spent RM 13 for my dinner. i taught sharing for KFC and Pepsi will end up save more.. and this is the worst KFC meal i've ever eaten... SERIOUSLY! i demanded for thigh meat and end up among all the 15 peices chicken in total, none is thigh meat.... and this is seriously expensive... regretted.... i intended to save and end up spend more... 

i've actually kept RM70 in total in my purse to stand till next thursday... but end up i went to the ATM again... because my wallet end up with RM30 only... how sad is this!!!!!! soon my savings is gonna be gone la like that... my iPhone dream straight tak ada.... 

btw, i guess i decided to wait for the iPhone 5. i hope i can wait. and i hope iPhone 5 dont make me regret for waiting for it.

currently just finish skyping with parents while editing my little script of my presentation next wednesday... seriously i felt so dead. i'm actually suppose to memorize that by today? monday rehearsal dead... 

i planned tomorrow i'm gonna cook instant noodles myself at my room and memorize that... lets hope i success in that... really dont wanna fail in the presentation. 

work for the PRESIDENT LIST! haha. epic. 

btw, today's talk was kinda lifeless except for the last 2 talks. but i guess it's worth changing that with 8 points of my sort of curriculum points which i suppose to collect 100 by the time i graduate. or else no graduating... :(( 

challenge accepted!!!

today dint complete editing the script cannot sleep!! 

i told my mum about the president list.. and she say as long as i do my best then that's enough. but i dont think so lo... later tak dapat all A then come blame me again... say scare i stress wor... but i take / look it as a challenge, so i guess it's the same afterall?? :D 

picture of my script. if i'm done with editing this then i can sleep. according to Vicky Yap. :)) 

tomorrow's talk at 10.30am. gonna wake up early do bread sandwich for lunch again. :) 

It's a thursday!

i broke a raw egg with my bare hands today... how sad is that..... and i'm so dumb to throw it off rather than steaming it to eat.... ganas betul... its like throwing away my 50 cents. how sad is that.....

Week 4. :)

It's almost the end of the 4th week. and i'm still slacking all my way... and today i sacrifice my whole afternoon doing the presentation slides for next wednesday which i planned to finish it by last monday... how sad is this... and i havent even started to memorize the presentation stuffs... 

It's fun hanging out with them. but it's too dangerous at times when i get almost addicted to it.. i know myself i'm not that kind of person who can do things well by last minute.. so i'm like slowly letting go of those hanging out stuffs.... i guess afterall, i dont mind havning an expensive delivery for my meal as long as i have time to finish my work on time.. :/  

ps: i still have 2 tutorials to do and the class is tomorrow 9.30am. 

i bought this pen at a Japanese shop in Hong Kong. the colour attract me. 

this is the most expensive delivery i've ever called before. no more next time. cost me RM5. and they wrote the price of this is RM4. and they say they charge extra RM1 for the delivery service which other shops gives free delivery service. 

i bought back this last sunday after buying birthday cake for my friend. it cost me RM3.20. althought it's cheap compared to klang. but i got cheated by the boss. so no next time also. :) 

the previous day i ordered the same thing but i eat in the shop and it cost me only RM3. 

blogging while skyping with parents. :D 

just came back from pasar malam.. bought lots of things. :) 

End of week 3

every thursday signifies the end of my another study week. and it comes to the end of the 3rd week of my study week already. i am seriously getting nervous. its feeling that words can't tell.

scary huh? my classmate put this on his phone to remind him everyday about the deadlines of our assignments. he's one of my assignment's group leader btw. :) 

and i'm actually the group leader of the marketing assignment. i'm pretty glad cause marketing assignment is the last assignment to pass up. :) 

the first assignment deadline is in another 13 days. 

i can hardly find time to actually do all my tutorials [which is my homeworks] and also PIANO THEORY HOMEWORKS! and how am i to finish all the assignments. :((( 

i finishing wrapping all my text books like FINALLY! :) 

i feel great after that. never wrapped any text books till so nice before. but it took me hours. and my task is to read all the text books finish if i were to aim really high this semester! try my very best... :)  

aiming for CGPA >3.5 if i could. CHIONG! 

part of my paper works that need to be completed. it's like only half of all. well. some is not a necessity to be completed but i make it a must. :) 

and another stack of my music theory which is another 3 times more than this? arrggsss. sad. :/

yesterday is wednesday. went to the night market again. and it did not RAIN! i wonder why rumours said every wednesday it will rain. it's so long since the last rain. 

i had a dry asam laksa. which i have never heard before in klang. :) 

tastes just okay. the type of noodles they use is really different. the one i ate everytime is those transparent ones. but this one is like those white in colour. 

bought 10 apples for RM5. it's like the cheapest apples that i've ever bought in my life. however, i regretted buying in this stall. because sooner i found another stall that i can actually mix apples and oranges together for the same price. really miss oranges so much. 

today is the second day i've decided to start jogging in the park behind my house. which i feel great! yesterday jog for 30 mins and today for around 45 mins. improving. :) 

i wanna see a decline in my weight! [very desperate]. :) 

btw. i have a news which i dont know if its good or bad. it's more on the bad side i think. haiz. but i cant do anything with it. 

i'm only going back to klang at the end of this june.

i'm seriously getting more and more nervous of my piano theory. which i guess i'm like not even 50% confident in passing the paper. that's why i wanna go back home so desperately. :( 

but of course i do have to complete the stacks first.  

went out for dinner. 

had lemon kuey teow soup. taste not bad. but i guess i'll be hungry very fast due to the acidity. :) 

skype-ing with parents now. :)