PaTieNce! =D

i'll try my best to control my anger and emotions for the upcoming days.. will stop joining in to gossip d.. =( feels bad when i think back..

need his encouragements.. XD

i had drop enough of tears and i hope it doesn't continues...

seriously i hate 2010!! it makes my life so so so much harder and miserable...

actually i do hope for getting NS... and my grandma will like it so much... she always tell my aunts that i'm gonna go take the guns and those... and she will be end up smiling there.... haha... but too bad tak kena... kinda disappointing tough... i feels like experiencing times taking real guns and playing around there... keep wondering... wonder how it'll be like.. makes me feel bit bad.. =/

my dad seriously hopes that i get 9A+..... he's mad... i dun even taught of 5A+.. and even 10A(no matter + or -) it's like kinda hard for me d... =( i'll seriously be a real real bookworm to get that... but what's stopping me is my laziness.. semakin suka tidur... =P haha.. when geram d will terus run in bathroom and shower with super duper cold water... teehee... =D hope that helps..

and piano exam's around the corner... but my teacher dun even take it seriously and simply cancel my class because of being really busybody... arrgg.. and my dad will scold me for that... haiz... i'll try my very best to score at least merit for my upcoming exam.. although i hope it would be my 4th distinction but i guess this time it's though.... teacher never gave me enough practices compared to last time.. and she loves to compare me with her really smart student... just because i failed the theory paper and she treated me like diff.. just blame yourself for that.... i know u taught all but when? the very last minute and u vomitted everything to me... as if i'm ur rubbish bin like that... haiz...

ps: i was told that life at 17 was not suppose to be as though as i felt now... haiz..

imy.. XD

where are you??? please bring me back.. =(


ps: i miss my piggy.. =)

4th of june 2010

yesterday night went jj after tuition... weee... it's been like weeks i did not enjoyed shopping ad... although it's not really that nice to shop yesterday but guess what?? i found my fav sneakers!! haha.. i have waited that shoes for like months.. and they are back again.. weeee.... i taught i'll never get them anymore... =( haha... and went to sasa to and i grabbed 2 masks... 1 for me and 1 for mum... hope it's nice... haha... and i found out that the things there are totally worth it... and it's like totally affordable for pple like me... haha... will look forward to go there more to get the nice stuffs there.. =)

went body shop to look look... =) and i ended up keep sneezing cos of the perfumes i touched... some really smells so bad till i can't take it... and my hand was like stucked with those smell... =( and i went to a shop.. i know it's beside maple and i forget what's the name... and i found a shirt that are totally adorable... they have the real teddy bear on it.. which is my fav... and it's like totally suits my body shape... wee..... but i din't buy it although it's cheap... mummy said i look nice on it but she also says that i look like a small girl after wearing that shirt... isn't that good?? makes me look younger... *winks* hahax... someone says he dun wan later pple say he go out with a little girl beside him.. hahax.. =D the next time i go jj i must grab that shirt... hopes that i'll still be there.. dun wanna regret... =(

looking forward for outings with my bao bei and piggy... =P

hopes the plan really works out.. bleks... haha...

mid-year is over... and i'll put more effort on my upcoming exams... =) i'll prove it!! yeah... my tuition teacher keeps reminding us that it's just 5 months to SPM!!! haix... time really flies... =/

yesterday went school with bao bei maye... haha... i guess we had some great time right?? i dun regret... haha... and i was really noisy the whole time... haha.. sorry 5 delima for laughing too laugh and disturb u guys... i just want to bring up the mood... =)

maye really maked me laugh like crazy... [thanks for your ears] hahax... =)

k la.. time to go... lazy to upload pictures although i have lots.. =)

buhbyes...

ps: miss piggy... =D

worries

seriously i'm really scared of my theory exam results... haix... everyone got their results ad.. and i guess my results reached d... but i dun dare to ask my teacher... really scare fail... dunno how to face it.. T_T i just dunno y i have the feeling of failing that exam... sobs... HOW???

mid-year exam totally kills... i seriously have no idea how bad my results is going to be... and i totally lost hope on my english ad.. =( just wish the next 8 subjects at least make me felt like "wow.. i know how to do..." =) haiz..

k lar... gonna prepare for the wars ad... sobs.. i really wish i could make the world a better place to live in...

ps: thanks to piggy... =D

tears and laughter

looking back at the past... it's just all about tears and laughter... u'll never know how much tears i had dropped... and wat's actually behind the laughter...

i just felt so diff.. and i get so stressed up and started being emo and there's where the tears come... i mean it's very natural to have feelings right?? and when it ended i just felt like nothing... who knows maybe it's good to have tears once a while... it's just so complicated.. i wouldn't know when's the right time and when's the wrong ones.. and i'm confused which is the good and bad... i just keep thinking non-stop but never had a conclusion and every time i did is just to let is pass just like that... well... actually i didn't know why i would be like freaking sad.. sesat betul.. i guess i just taught like why wouldn't u just tell me that u are busy... and u can even tell that to ur friends but why not me.. i guess that's why i'm like that.. i apologize for yesterday night.. i'm really in a terrible mood... and i just dunno why my books are wet.. =( i wouldn't know what to do next... i gonna calm down and looks what's next.. i know it's sesat... bla bla bla.. =)

exam is just round the corner... and what i gonna do is to make my parents happy with my results... conclusion: i MUST prepare but i haven't touched my books... sesat...

my parents din't know bout my second exam.. so it's like useless getting no.1... btw... at least i had get no.1 before and it's like the 1st time in my entire life... SERIOUS... haha... i know i'm quite sua ku to get no.1.. haha... gonna have SEMANGAT!! yeah.. =)

currently loves hillsongs... it's like not bad... and i'm totally addicted to vanilla twilight as i love the melody and especially the lyrics... haha... it's like so sweet.. =P

k lar... buhbyes... i'm tired.. 1st time do gardening for that few hours.. really enjoy today.. thanks to my sistars.. =) i hope to laugh more... and i'm crazy once it started... =D

Just another ordinary day

it's holiday again... i never get excited during holiday anymore... haha... cos i know it's a moment nearer to all the problems again...

last monday had my theory exam at kwang hwa...

totally nice school.. with the new tables... superb.. =) and i guess my exam not as hard as i taught... well, i guess i din't manage to do that well.. and i'm still wondering if i did answered correctly most of the questions... bad bad... =( just hope for a pass.. lolx....

after that went jj and meet up the guys.. =) was really sesated at the 1st place.. but as time passes trough and i felt so much fun being with them... =) at least they din even left me out even though i'm the odd 1 there... =) 1st time going out with so many biggg guys.. =P and i watched "under the mountain"... err... actually not bad lar.. rating: 6/10 ?? cos i was not enjoying after half of the movie.. as i'm really superb hungry... and i felt so sleepy but dun dare to sleep... =P and all i felt is hunger during the movie... i think i did prefer "alice in the wonderland" than that... =) after movie we went "kim gary".... was totally funny inside there... =) makes me smile everytime i taught of it... later on we went walk walk as the ktv was full... and went back around 530... dad's a bit not happy i guess... cos i was out whole day.. =) but he din't scold... but still i know lar..

16/3/10....

another normal day... =) nothing special... and i was looking for things to do cos mummy dun let me online long long... =/ so end up i got piles of works to complete...

17/3/10

i woke up really early and wanted to go for a jog but mummy dun let... and she say later i got caught by those bad pple... haha... and after dad went out for work i online again... i had some cookies for breakfast.. and it's a very nice packaging gift pack of cookies from someone during CNY and i opened it and without any look at it i just ate it.. and end up i found that it's rotten and there's those white fungus?? around... so i ended up in toilet for the 2nd time in half hour ad... sobs.. =( i should learn to look at things 1st... =P

18/3/10

going jj again.. hope daddy let as i asked jess to fetch me... =) maybe i'll go back early...

mum says that i have to prepare for my june piano practical exam from now.. arrgg... got to go through another tough moment again.... say peace... =P

i still dun understand y he din't want to reply my messages... not even a single... i guess maybe u want it to be that way... well.. den i'll be tat way... sorry for bothering very much..

got to go.. buhbyes.. =) imy.. and i know u din't know it... =/

feeling super tired.. especially after few hours doing theory in my teacher's house... really do wish i could pass... =/ anyhow.. i'm really very dead for this time's school exam... i din't even prepared for it also... so i guess i gonna cut my sleeping time again... sobs... all exam at once... making me feel like crazy.. =/

i realise that everytime before few days exam u will surely not even care me... isshh.. hate it.. =(

imy..

gonna be lolo soon.. =)