its the 9th week proceeding to the 10th week of my first year semester 1 degree. and this is the very first time i felt like giving up everything. not just because of my degree. facing some pressures from the theory exam as well. everyday, parents without fail asking me the progress of my theory. and the problem is i dont even have time to do and practice them. not to say my theory homeworks. i dont even have time to sleep. have been torturing my brain, organs and the whole body this week. eventhough i feel so sleepy till an extend that i cannot resist anymore i still force myself to do it. been really tough last wednesday and thursday. really worried for the assignment very much. i shouldn't have agreed to become the leader at the first place. i guess i failed in becoming a leader. looking back at my foundation year, i finally realise how hard it is to be a leader and my all time leader is really great in doing things. she do things really much more professionally compared to me. and really thanks to one of my group member who finished arranging and editting the whole assignment when i just fell asleep. if he did not do it, i might really have to just stay awake for the whole night to do it and at that point of time i'm really sleepy till an extend that i can even sleep standing. i just feel so great. i know he is sleepy too but he did it. :D the thing i worried most is the citation of the assignment. it is so important that i read a sentence the lecturer wrote on the marking scheme that : "failure of citation is the failure of the whole assignment". SHIT. why do citation ever exist in the first place. cant afford to let it be a problem. everyone's result is on my hands. damn. btw, i shall start preparing the slides tomorrow. i cant do it today. haven't recover from depression. :/ and then i shall start preparing for my upcoming QT test 2. btw, i'm pretty satisfied with my test 1 results. but i guess i can do better. told parents about it this morning and i'm glad they dint compare me with others this time. because they do this everytime which is one of the reason i'm always stressed. they asked me to try my best and do what i can and not to pressurise myself. which i sort of felt so touched of it. :')
everytime skype with mum and she will end up complaining i should have more sleep. she realise it through the evidence on my eyes. and yeah she said i look really terrible and dull.
and by the way, did i said that i done 2 stupid challenges this week? yeah. proud of it.
1st challenge: walk around the housing area till 4am almost 5am. :P went mamak at 2am i guessed. and this is also the first time i walked to mamak. haha. you dont expect that from me in Klang. my parents will kill me for doing that. :)
2nd challenge: stayed up in the library till its closed which is till 9pm. stay from 2pm till 9pm. this is epic right? and they did make announcement like those malls asking you to leave. hahax. i think this is cool. :) never been inside a library that LONG! and was studying microeconmics the whole time. but still screwed up. whatever i guess. econs is never my favourite subject. :(
he accompanied me for both the challenges. :)
and i watched SPONGEBOB SQUAREPANTS like crazy this week. i guess i'm almost addicted to it. never fail to laugh at any episode. :) cant resist his cuteness. well, patrick is another that i favour. :)
should put this on my door.
might have go paint this out whenever i'm free. :) cant wait for this activity to happen.
spongebob's party set.
this website is even cooler. they provide Spongebob's USB, laptop cover, mouse, keyboard, speaker, bag, camera and even the spongebob made computer. this is so cool. :D
The Dark Knight later!
i want pictures in my DSLR.
i want a new profile picture.
i want to do more challenges that i've never done before.
LIVE LIFE TO THE FULLEST! :D
