16 more days left!!
let's work towards the end.. =D
all the best to everyone and especially to him. =D

take care.

hugggsss and kisses...
=D

I am a honey bee
Shunned off from the colony
And they won’t let me in
So I left the hive
They took away all my stripes
And broke off both my wings
So I’ll find another tree
And make the wind my friend
I’ll just sing with the birds
They’ll tell me secrets off the world

But my other honey bee
Stuck where he doesn’t wanna be
Oh my darling honey bee
I’ll come save you
Even if it means I’ll have to face the queen

So I’ll come prepared
My new friends say they would help me
Get my loved one back
They say it isn’t right
The bees have control of your mind
But I choose not to believe that
So we’ll meet in the darkness of the night
And I’ll promise I will be there on time
We’ll be guided by my new friends the butterflies
Bring us back to our own little hive

Oh my other honey bee
No longer stuck where he doesn’t wanna be
Oh my darling honey bee
I have saved you
And now that you’re with me
We can make our own honey


*winks* in love with this song.. =D

know why it's raining just now?? because someone's sad... because someone's crying.... i enjoy standing under the rain because i know nobody would ever stand there under the heavy rain so that nobody ever realise that i'm crying...


now i realise something very important...
i know what to do next... ='(


ps: thx waiyang kai kor.. =)

PaTieNce! =D

i'll try my best to control my anger and emotions for the upcoming days.. will stop joining in to gossip d.. =( feels bad when i think back..

need his encouragements.. XD

i had drop enough of tears and i hope it doesn't continues...

seriously i hate 2010!! it makes my life so so so much harder and miserable...

actually i do hope for getting NS... and my grandma will like it so much... she always tell my aunts that i'm gonna go take the guns and those... and she will be end up smiling there.... haha... but too bad tak kena... kinda disappointing tough... i feels like experiencing times taking real guns and playing around there... keep wondering... wonder how it'll be like.. makes me feel bit bad.. =/

my dad seriously hopes that i get 9A+..... he's mad... i dun even taught of 5A+.. and even 10A(no matter + or -) it's like kinda hard for me d... =( i'll seriously be a real real bookworm to get that... but what's stopping me is my laziness.. semakin suka tidur... =P haha.. when geram d will terus run in bathroom and shower with super duper cold water... teehee... =D hope that helps..

and piano exam's around the corner... but my teacher dun even take it seriously and simply cancel my class because of being really busybody... arrgg.. and my dad will scold me for that... haiz... i'll try my very best to score at least merit for my upcoming exam.. although i hope it would be my 4th distinction but i guess this time it's though.... teacher never gave me enough practices compared to last time.. and she loves to compare me with her really smart student... just because i failed the theory paper and she treated me like diff.. just blame yourself for that.... i know u taught all but when? the very last minute and u vomitted everything to me... as if i'm ur rubbish bin like that... haiz...

ps: i was told that life at 17 was not suppose to be as though as i felt now... haiz..

imy.. XD

where are you??? please bring me back.. =(


ps: i miss my piggy.. =)

4th of june 2010

yesterday night went jj after tuition... weee... it's been like weeks i did not enjoyed shopping ad... although it's not really that nice to shop yesterday but guess what?? i found my fav sneakers!! haha.. i have waited that shoes for like months.. and they are back again.. weeee.... i taught i'll never get them anymore... =( haha... and went to sasa to and i grabbed 2 masks... 1 for me and 1 for mum... hope it's nice... haha... and i found out that the things there are totally worth it... and it's like totally affordable for pple like me... haha... will look forward to go there more to get the nice stuffs there.. =)

went body shop to look look... =) and i ended up keep sneezing cos of the perfumes i touched... some really smells so bad till i can't take it... and my hand was like stucked with those smell... =( and i went to a shop.. i know it's beside maple and i forget what's the name... and i found a shirt that are totally adorable... they have the real teddy bear on it.. which is my fav... and it's like totally suits my body shape... wee..... but i din't buy it although it's cheap... mummy said i look nice on it but she also says that i look like a small girl after wearing that shirt... isn't that good?? makes me look younger... *winks* hahax... someone says he dun wan later pple say he go out with a little girl beside him.. hahax.. =D the next time i go jj i must grab that shirt... hopes that i'll still be there.. dun wanna regret... =(

looking forward for outings with my bao bei and piggy... =P

hopes the plan really works out.. bleks... haha...

mid-year is over... and i'll put more effort on my upcoming exams... =) i'll prove it!! yeah... my tuition teacher keeps reminding us that it's just 5 months to SPM!!! haix... time really flies... =/

yesterday went school with bao bei maye... haha... i guess we had some great time right?? i dun regret... haha... and i was really noisy the whole time... haha.. sorry 5 delima for laughing too laugh and disturb u guys... i just want to bring up the mood... =)

maye really maked me laugh like crazy... [thanks for your ears] hahax... =)

k la.. time to go... lazy to upload pictures although i have lots.. =)

buhbyes...

ps: miss piggy... =D

worries

seriously i'm really scared of my theory exam results... haix... everyone got their results ad.. and i guess my results reached d... but i dun dare to ask my teacher... really scare fail... dunno how to face it.. T_T i just dunno y i have the feeling of failing that exam... sobs... HOW???

mid-year exam totally kills... i seriously have no idea how bad my results is going to be... and i totally lost hope on my english ad.. =( just wish the next 8 subjects at least make me felt like "wow.. i know how to do..." =) haiz..

k lar... gonna prepare for the wars ad... sobs.. i really wish i could make the world a better place to live in...

ps: thanks to piggy... =D

tears and laughter

looking back at the past... it's just all about tears and laughter... u'll never know how much tears i had dropped... and wat's actually behind the laughter...

i just felt so diff.. and i get so stressed up and started being emo and there's where the tears come... i mean it's very natural to have feelings right?? and when it ended i just felt like nothing... who knows maybe it's good to have tears once a while... it's just so complicated.. i wouldn't know when's the right time and when's the wrong ones.. and i'm confused which is the good and bad... i just keep thinking non-stop but never had a conclusion and every time i did is just to let is pass just like that... well... actually i didn't know why i would be like freaking sad.. sesat betul.. i guess i just taught like why wouldn't u just tell me that u are busy... and u can even tell that to ur friends but why not me.. i guess that's why i'm like that.. i apologize for yesterday night.. i'm really in a terrible mood... and i just dunno why my books are wet.. =( i wouldn't know what to do next... i gonna calm down and looks what's next.. i know it's sesat... bla bla bla.. =)

exam is just round the corner... and what i gonna do is to make my parents happy with my results... conclusion: i MUST prepare but i haven't touched my books... sesat...

my parents din't know bout my second exam.. so it's like useless getting no.1... btw... at least i had get no.1 before and it's like the 1st time in my entire life... SERIOUS... haha... i know i'm quite sua ku to get no.1.. haha... gonna have SEMANGAT!! yeah.. =)

currently loves hillsongs... it's like not bad... and i'm totally addicted to vanilla twilight as i love the melody and especially the lyrics... haha... it's like so sweet.. =P

k lar... buhbyes... i'm tired.. 1st time do gardening for that few hours.. really enjoy today.. thanks to my sistars.. =) i hope to laugh more... and i'm crazy once it started... =D

Just another ordinary day

it's holiday again... i never get excited during holiday anymore... haha... cos i know it's a moment nearer to all the problems again...

last monday had my theory exam at kwang hwa...

totally nice school.. with the new tables... superb.. =) and i guess my exam not as hard as i taught... well, i guess i din't manage to do that well.. and i'm still wondering if i did answered correctly most of the questions... bad bad... =( just hope for a pass.. lolx....

after that went jj and meet up the guys.. =) was really sesated at the 1st place.. but as time passes trough and i felt so much fun being with them... =) at least they din even left me out even though i'm the odd 1 there... =) 1st time going out with so many biggg guys.. =P and i watched "under the mountain"... err... actually not bad lar.. rating: 6/10 ?? cos i was not enjoying after half of the movie.. as i'm really superb hungry... and i felt so sleepy but dun dare to sleep... =P and all i felt is hunger during the movie... i think i did prefer "alice in the wonderland" than that... =) after movie we went "kim gary".... was totally funny inside there... =) makes me smile everytime i taught of it... later on we went walk walk as the ktv was full... and went back around 530... dad's a bit not happy i guess... cos i was out whole day.. =) but he din't scold... but still i know lar..

16/3/10....

another normal day... =) nothing special... and i was looking for things to do cos mummy dun let me online long long... =/ so end up i got piles of works to complete...

17/3/10

i woke up really early and wanted to go for a jog but mummy dun let... and she say later i got caught by those bad pple... haha... and after dad went out for work i online again... i had some cookies for breakfast.. and it's a very nice packaging gift pack of cookies from someone during CNY and i opened it and without any look at it i just ate it.. and end up i found that it's rotten and there's those white fungus?? around... so i ended up in toilet for the 2nd time in half hour ad... sobs.. =( i should learn to look at things 1st... =P

18/3/10

going jj again.. hope daddy let as i asked jess to fetch me... =) maybe i'll go back early...

mum says that i have to prepare for my june piano practical exam from now.. arrgg... got to go through another tough moment again.... say peace... =P

i still dun understand y he din't want to reply my messages... not even a single... i guess maybe u want it to be that way... well.. den i'll be tat way... sorry for bothering very much..

got to go.. buhbyes.. =) imy.. and i know u din't know it... =/

feeling super tired.. especially after few hours doing theory in my teacher's house... really do wish i could pass... =/ anyhow.. i'm really very dead for this time's school exam... i din't even prepared for it also... so i guess i gonna cut my sleeping time again... sobs... all exam at once... making me feel like crazy.. =/

i realise that everytime before few days exam u will surely not even care me... isshh.. hate it.. =(

imy..

gonna be lolo soon.. =)

26.02.10

is just another ordinary day.. and i felt to tired and bored... was trying to finish all the tasks given...

today morning woke up at 8am and i went to the morning market with mum just to buy some nice vege for tonight's cookings.. after breakfast dad says we are gonna clean up the car porch.. and after cleaning all the stuffs.. i usually walk around my house... and guess what.. i saw a super cute puppy and it's Shtizhu i think... and with the fur all.. just nice for me.. but dad says the puppy is dumped by its owner... and i think it's infected so we can't take him home... sad sad.. T.T after that i look outside fro my house again.. and i saw the little puppy being bullied by few fierce big dogs.. totally scary...

btw... yesterday school had a really mini edu fair.. and din really went for everything cos it's just the same college again and again.. except for like 1 or 2... although i'm really into arts and design... but still had some choices in my mind...

1: arts and design

2: culinary arts

3: music

4: photography (maybe just as my hobby)

5: hotel management/ tourism / naturalist

and thinking to go form 6 / matriculation / A-levels / foundation after my form 5.. aiks..

complicated... =P

imy... =)

.............

confused of something... and i feel very bad... don't know how to decide...

today after service went and eat nasi lemak... and their teh tarik is not bad... and i feel like eating there every sunday... bleks..

tomorrow school reopen ad... and my tiring journey gonna start again.. wish i wouldn't be lazy anymore... gotta be serious ad.. weee...

was asked on my after form 5 journey... and i guess i choose to go for arts and design... hope i wouldn't regret... and again it's all bout deciding... =) i heard that it's quite challenging and tiring... but i guess it's better than anything to do with science which i'm forcing myself to like them now... haiz..

i'm putting on weight since CNY.... so it's time for me to get my weight down again... =D

this year's CNY was not that bad... my red packet money added cos i'm the only one getting red packet in my family now... so i guess the total amount is almost double... =) and grandma gave me the most this year among all... (she's not bias anymore.. ) wee...

i know i shouldn't have been having bad feelings towards her... oppss.. sorry.. =/

i wanna let you know something...

was laughing a lot today even for some nonsense... din't eat medicine today... haha...

i misses you.. and yet i don't dare to say it out.. =/

feels like messaging u... but scare scare... hehee...

endless post ends here..got piles of things to do...

happy chinese new year to all my friends and anyone... =)

to all couples and also everyone especially my chi mui(S): happy valentines day! =)

yeah... tomorrow can start wearing all my new shirts ad.. can't wait for tomorrow... and i wanna take loads and loads of pictures... and make a collection.. =)

hope this year's CNY will be great... =) can eat cookies ad... but have to control.. aiks... =P

i miss you!! and ily.. =D

12.02.10

Valentine's day is coming very soon.. and i'm proud to say i'm celebrating with my chi mui.. =) feels so jealous and envy of those couples... XD makes me feels like................... bleks.. everyone so sweet.... wonder when's mine..

btw... yesterday bought few pairs of new shirt.. and made me feels really superb for my CNY planning.. =) and now i began to love that shop.. =) can't wait... wee... and mum was really ganas.. she wanted to buy me all he clothes that i tried but i took away some which was not worth the price... =) and ended up almost RM300... sesated..

yeah.. tomorrow reunion dinner day edi... wonder what's my dinner... =P




i was too afraid to love because i scared i will be hurt... =/

30.01.10

it's coming to the end of january.. and it's reminding me that another month had passed and another month nearer to SPM and also my both piano exam... totally stressed up... aiks... i'm tired... but just couldn't stop down.. haiz...

currently:

• thinking ideas of my both clubs notice board which i'm really lost in it.. =)
• trying to finish as much of my theory exam papers which i got scold by teacher for finishing it too slow...
• finishing up every single of my school homeworks which end up piles cos i was lazy for few days ago.. *winks* =P
• finding lots and lots of my fav songs just to entertain myself whenever i'm bored.. =)
• i wanna go out just to get a pair of new sneakers / heels for CNY!!

guess nothing more important than this edi.. =) was happy yesterday... cos i get a medal which i din get for a year edi.. =) although i din reach my aim for getting top 10 but at least number 14 isn't that bad right?? still better than nothing lar.. *winks* looking forward into school sports events now.. i wanna join in every single of the contest in school.. really wan to enjoy to the fullest and i dun mind getting tired as long as i felt satisfied with my works... =)

k lar.. gtg...

ps: something really surprised me few days ago.. =)

ps: miss u.. take care.. =)

since monday have not been really sleeping that well.. and time is totally limited for me.. =/ and today also kinda busy but at least i spend sometime here.. =) i'm sick d.. seriously busy till drop ad... and yet no one cared... i wanted him to care but he's the one who din even care... so sad... =( i was thinking that if he thinks i'm annoying... i wondering if he hates me.. i wanna know what's happening... he treats me diff... =/ maybe cos we are both busy at our things... but at least ask me what happened right?? lolx... yesterday i attended the 1st koko meeting of the year.. look what i got.. =)

kelab pencinta alam: setiausaha

kelab olahraga: ahli biasa

pandu puteri: setiausaha

weeee... i'm now officially ms.secretary... =) i guess i love this job compared to last year's vice president.. =)

k lar.. gonna proceed to my homeworks ad... this saturday still must go school... aiks...

wish me the best.. buhbyes..

miss you always.. =)

school days are totally super tired... =/ especially on the monday, tuesday and sometimes wednesday... really scare i'm not able to go along with this till the end... currently eyes still pain pain and it's like getting worst after i eat the medicine the doctor gave... which is very bad.. =( anyhow... i'm currently finding for someone who's able to teach me back all the form 4 stuffs... seriously i'm having BIGGGG problem on them... aiks... really regretted for playing the whole year... so currently have to work out 200% which other pple may oni need to work out 100% and this is bad... helps... really desperate for sleeping time.. but dun dare to sleep.. this is like so stupid.. =P so will be tired most of the time.. and i use some stupid method to keep me awake.. =)

school days is not that bad as i taught.. at least i'm still entertained by 2 lil jokers... i know they are insulting me.. but that's where fun comes from right?? =) thanks to yiksoon and jason.. haha.. they keep calling me fatty and whenever they pass by me they will act as if i'm big as a sumo and say i'm blocking the whole way... sesated.. =) and last week they called me spider.. cos of shienrun aka asam's little scary creature... i really hate spiders.. and since then they say spider is my best friend.. sesat.. then gopi called me china girl since last week which was given by pn.ngai.. haha.. not bad lar.. =) and this week the 2 jokers plus weixiang called me grizzly bear... cos i was so fierce to weixiang all the time and he say i'm just like a grizzly bear.. sesated.. =) wonder what's my new name for next week.. =) and pn.lim scolded them for calling me names.. she said y keep bully me.. and i said cos i attractive.. haha.. and they acted like vomitting.. isn't that cute? haha.. so childish.. dunno y nowdays becoming more and more perasan.. bleks..

my theory exam coming ad.. and i'm still like not sure of doing every questions... really scared.. =( i dun wanna fail.. just giv me a pass and i'm satisfied.. =)

days are getting tired and i wish to have the energy till the end.. =) and i guess days are still the better than i ever taught it will be.. =) really hope to have all great times with u...

IMY!! =D

The New Year!! =)

Dear readers... from now on.. this blog will looks dead... cos can't really get to online very often due to parents plus school time.. school is really crazy for making us study till 2.15pm every monday and tuesday.. =(

k lar.. got to go... =)

a new year a new me... (hope it will work out..)